Thanks for some of the remarks back from a few of you on my last report. Perhaps I was being a little vague, but here it is a little clearer.

The guy I am dating has a problem with men talking to me, noticing me, saying hi to me. I personally do not have a problem with a man looking at my man. In my mind, I would be thinking, "he is with me and I have him, isn't he hot?"

I am just hoping that he can accept me for who I am now and not who he wants to change me to be. Cause a tree limb can only bend so far before it snaps.

It has been a while coming back to the Internet. I am trying to figure out what my presence is going to be on here. I have always been comical about things and I still want to be that way. However, I am taking away the sexiness of me from it. I am trying to balance the fun of expressing myself to the feelings of a man I am dating.

I guess there is an oxymoron happening here...

How does a man fall in love with a sexy man? I mean, the idea is that you are attracted to them because they're sexy and beautiful. Others, find him sexy too. But now, that you have him, as in dating, you want others to stop wanting him. Therefore you want him to stop being sexy and beautiful. Hence the oxymoron.

So, what one does, to keep things copacetic, is too remove nude photos from internet. Good for a while, but there are still sexy pics posted that you never thought were, and then you have those removed. So, now one is posting the pictures of who you are. They too may be in jeopardy.

So where does it stop?

Where the hell have you been? Well actually, it's been a shitty few months with the "break-up" and all and I have just been keeping to myself. Didn't really feel like venting or talking about stuff. Was feeling a little sorry for myself and probably more angry that it didn't work out and that it was what it was. I have been working a lot to make up the time and stay outta trouble. I have been dating and it's different for sure. It's hard getting to know someone else and how they work and "tick".

I am looking forward to the summer and it has been real hot here. I will begin some video blogs in the next while and get myself back and running in a more "social" way.

Hope all is good peeps!

Cal

So finally the warm weather has arrived. I need to work on the pasty white skin I have. The Winter has taken it's toll on ye ole bod. Need to get back into the gym after this rotator cup injury! The pain kills. So much for the chest press! UGH!

So, it was great to see Britney last night! Concert was great! I had front row seats and wished she would sweat on me as she passed over! I was thinking of masterbating, while she looked down to throw her off, however she never really looked at anyone. I think she was scared!

I enjoyed the concert, except for the 30 minute break after the first three songs. But hey, it was good value. I will try to get my vid up here on the concert, once I download it onto youtube.

Oh when oh when is SPring going to get here? Vancouver has been unusually cold this past Winter. The buds are slow to come and so is the sun. I need some warmth. Do you ever have those days when you think that all you do is work? Where is the fun? Never here until Summer, when it is warm and sunny and you can walk around half naked. ahhh those are the days! Men GAWKING! WOOF WOOF! get me to the BEACH!

Well I have my PC back and working. Not that I am excited about it as I think it sucks. The only reason I keep it, is for the games and stuff.

So it looks as though we are never going to thaw out here in Vancouver. What's with the snowfall? DAYEM! Finally sunny though and hopefully it will warm up because I am freezing my ass off here in Vancouver.

Going to see if I can get a VLOG together this weekend! So look for it.

Talk soon!
Cal

So I have not updated my site as I have it on my PC and the power source blew out a few weeks back! But now I need the information for my taxes and updating the site! So FUCK! I am using my MAC at the moment, which I love. But my programs don't work on here. DAMMIT! I need to buy a cheap PC to play some wild games and that's all!

I am caught here in Vancouver with the Plane delays!

Well back from Dallas and to the COLD weather of the Pacific North West! At least it was warm weather down there! THANK YOU! you guys really don't know how great you have it!

Had a great weekend. What about you?

Well i guess I have to be a little excited about Christmas around the corner. Whoo hoo, give me prezzies!

There is a reason why they don't film porno first thing in the morning. I am swollen from the night before. UGH, check out that luggage. Oh well, I am prettier in person! GRRRRRRRRRRR!

Decenber 13th, 2008 I will be in DALLAS Texas to be a SEXY SANTA to Leathermasters.com Christmas Party. If you are in the area and want a chance to meet up with me, then get yer ass in gear and get down there. Have a picture taken with me. Tell me all your dirty stories and things to make you real NAUGHTY.

I have never been to DALLAS, so I am excited about meeting people from there. I bet you all talk funny huh? This I want to hear. Plus aren't things GROWN LARGER in Texas? So NOW I wanna see your dicks! I want proof! Now the only thought is how do I measure? Hmmmmm???

I love this mid November warmth. 12-15c and rainy of course! but that is what keeps it so nice and warm!

So last night I ended up on BLOGTV at 9pm. I know I didn't tell anyone about it, but it was interesting as I ended up talking to a group of 20 something girls. Kinda weird and funny at the same time. They asked me a lot about gay stuff. Like I know anything! I did miss my gays! I am going to be on there again next week, Tuesday at 9pm! Hope to see you guys there!

If you remember I said I was getting some pics done back in May. Michael Agalo of roughgods.com was in Vancouver shooting another gig and apporached me to do a shoot. Well I am beginning to place some of those pics up on the website. The first set I have placed up are "G" rated, so take a look and lemme know.

I have another BLOGTV.com coming up September 30. at 9pm Pacific time.

See you there
Cal